I hope whoever is reading this, that you are feeling at peace with yourself in this moment, as of right now me, not so much. It’s been 2 years since my sister passed away and it feels as though the grief just gets harder to deal with. It’s true when they say it comes in waves, but you never realize how hard those waves hit. One day you could feel your best self, maybe you even feel this for weeks. You go out to bars with your friends, start incorporating new hobbies, spending quality time with family and it all starts feeling peaceful. Then there comes a period where all that stuff that once made you happy, end up being what you want to do the least. You’d rather scream at the top of your lungs and make yourself cry until your head hurts so bad you physically can’t cry anymore. Your excuse to going out isn’t to have fun with friends, but it’s to drink so much you no longer feel the pain, at least for a few hours. I’m here to express that i’ve been feeling this for the past month but am starting to see the light at the end of this tunnel. I feel excited about life again, I feel the need to do the craziest things with my friends because I know tomorrow is not promised. If you’re feeling the same way or maybe it’s the opposite for you, i’m here to tell you that you’re going to be just fine. You will find that light at the end of your tunnel and it’s going to be the best feeling. I love you.